Tonight we had our festival on ice performance. I guess I better explain:

Three weeks ago, Erin, me and Sara signed up to come every Sunday at 5:45 a.m. to the skating rink to practice for the performance, tonight. Anyway, it was a pain in the butt to get up that early but I wanted to perform sooo badly.

All today I was sooo nervous. I was dying of nervousness. But finally I came to the skating rink to get it all over with. When I finally got out on the ice, I did pretty well. I landed my solchiw and my 1-foot opin was o.k., but not one of my best. Then we waited while the Intermediate people (including Sara) did their and then all together we went across the ice in a bunny-hop, bunny-hop, lunge. When we finished we were spossed to do backwards swizzles back to the wall, but my blade clanked with the girl next to me’s and she went down. I feel sooo bad. And she rubbed it in. When we got back to the wall she was complaining to Suzanne, another girl in our group about how, she was going to look like a ritard. I can only comfort myself by telling myself that she chose it to happen and the girl was a spoiled brat anyway.

After that incident came to pass we had to do solos on one-foot spins. I did better than I had on my last one, but still not very well. Oh well. At least I got to perform and that was an experience I wouldn’t trade for a million bucks. I can’t wait for ice-skating this Saturday. 2 whole days! How will I live? Just joking!

Here’s what our routine was:

March onto ice, go into skating, turn backwards, turn forwards, turn backwards, turn forwards, go into a  few front crossovers into back crossovers into solchow, 2 foot glide w/ arms in “V” and turn to backwards spiral into one-foot spin.

“Back spiral”, Jennifer Heller Continue Reading

I’ve really been missing Becky lately.  I don’t really have a best friend now.  I mean Emily’s supposed to be my best friend but lately it hasn’t felt like it. I wish I could write the truth in here, but I can’t.  Emily will read this.  But right now I can’t keep my feelings in.  So, Emily, don’t take offense by what I’m writing.  I have to get my feelings of my chest.

One thing that made Becky’s and mine friendship so strong was that we were always fighting.  We never had feelings to get off our chests and if we did, we could argue it out and no one would get offended.  But if I ever have a problem with Emily and I get mad, emily will get really, really upset and start crying then and there!  So, I can’t stay mad but am guilty. If she could hold her feelings in, it would be better.  What our friendship really needs is a good fight.  It’ll never work this way.

She’s to over something. She acts like a jealous boyfriend sometimes. To her if I happen to be talking to someone else, she’ll feel left out and start to pout.  Every 2° if I’m in a good mood, Emily’ll be in a bad mood and bring me down with her.  Excuse me, for being happy!  I swear if I’m happy and she’s not (which she never is) I have to stop being happy.  And there’s one thing she has to know: Alexis doesn’t like her! There, I wrote it! All the problems w/ her and Bio Science are because Alexis doesn’t like her!  She hast o know that!  I didn’t know how to tell her that but now, if she reads this she’ll know.

Every Mon. and Tues. Emily comes home w/ my carpool and my mom takes her home.  Her house isn’t that out of the way, but why should my mom take routine trips out of her way just for her?!!! There are people who live much, much closer who she could easily get rides with.  Take Erica!  She lives 2 blocks away! Erica could easily give Emily a ride home, but no, she has to inconvenience my mom and me by having us waste gasoline on her!  I know Elaine does a lot for me but my mom also takes Emily to ice skating once a week, a job she doesn’t particularly enjoy! Continue Reading

Before we begin, I have to point out that the top left of the first page of this entry reads “Make Love Not War”…

…and the top right of the second page reads “Jessica and Christy SUCK!” Contradict yourself much, 12-year-old me?

Well, I haven’t written for awhile so I better catch up:

Thurs 2-24: Valentine’s dance.  In the middle a wave of depression came over me and I spent the rest of the night depressed because I don’t have a boyfriend.  That night I spent the night at Emily’s and we ate tons of ice cream.

Bad Night! (not at Em’s but at the dance)

There has been nothing else really major. Until Tuesday. (last Tuesday) Robbie and Kerry got back together !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Maybe I should find someone new.  But there is an upside.  Tom told Kerry that Robbie likes someone else as well as Kerry.  Robbie keeps denying it, which means it’s true.  Kerry says that if it’s true, she’ll dump Robbie.  That means he’ll be free, and what if the person is me!  I doubt it, but there’s a faint glimmer of light. But Robbie said this morning (according to Kristin) that he’d die for Kerry.  You do not know how depressing it is to see them holding hands!  But they don’t do that stuff as much as before so maybe they’re relationship is diminishing.  Besides, there’s a twist:

Tom really, really likes Kerry.  But now that Robbie and Kerry are back together, Tom’s and Robbie’s friendship is on very rough waters.  They’re always fighing.  Doesn’t Kerry see she’s breaking up they’re friendship?!!! I mean, they’ve been best buds since 2nd grade or some junk.  Kerry’s a bitch! Continue Reading

(Robbie and Tom W. didn’t show up)

MY WHOLE CONCEPT OF REALITY IS GONE!!! It all started with Alyssia J. broke up with Andy. That was last Tues. I think. then last Fri. Chan asked Daniele W. out! And she said yes! But awhile ago Chan and Nicole O. got contacts. Chan without glasses?!!! It’s crazy. Then last night Ana went w/ Natalie to TNT (Church youth group) and the girls of the cliche talked to her! They used to hate her! Well, I’m pretty sure of that. Everything I’ve believed in: the people in the cliche will always cold shoulder us no matter waht we do; Chan wears glasses; we all hate Alyssia; Amy and Chan would end up together not Amy and George B!; Alyssia and Andy would always go out; is gone. All of it! Everything! That’s the stuff I always could count on to be the same no matter waht else changed. Well, at least I know the cliche will be the cliche! But if they stop ignoring me then I have to rely on Emily to deliver me to the nut house. (Ha, ha!)

Reality

My reality went BYE, BYE!

I’m so nervous. Actually scared is a better word. I’ve been out since Wed w/ Namonia and tomorrow I have skating lessons. Afterward I’ll just stick around for Ana’s B-day party also at the skating rink. It’s boy-girl and Robbie will be there. Will he think me stuck up for having my own skates? Normally I don’t care what people think, but I like Robbie. I told Natalie, but tomorrow I’m going to tell her I stopped because I don’t want anyone knowing. But, oh I don’t know. It’s not like he’s going to judge me because of my bunnie skate guards. I just hope I won’t look like a major show off. It’s not like I’m an Olympian but I don’t suck and I am most certainly going to be better than anyone else there. Well we’ll just have to find out what happens won’t we?

I haven’t written because, quite honestly, there hasn’t been much going on. C’est la barbe! [around here]

That is until today… I guess I’ll have to start at the beginning!

Friday night – Erika had a sleepover B-day party!  I, of course, was there and at about 3 in the morning we played (what else) truth or dare!  Anyway Sarah B. dared me to wear this certain color of lipstick all Tues (we had Mon. off) The color itself wasn’t that bad but it was the consequences that were bad.  If I didn’t wear it on Tues – I had to kiss Dav P. (GEEK) on the cheek w/ bright glow-in-the-dark red!  Guess what?  I forgot the lipstick on Tues! So I had to face the consequences today. Continue Reading