I think she’s capable of doing anything when she’s that mad!

Originally Written on November 27, 1993
Posted on by Jennifer Heller

Hi! I’m sitting around with Emily. I HATE Alexis.

Yesterday at Natalie’s b-day party, I had a great time. Alexis wasn’t being especially bitchy or anything. She was just acting sort of… well I geuss you could say she was ignoring me, but she did try to talk to me a few times. She was doing a pretty good job of acting like it was okay between us until we were on out way home from the movie theatre. Erika H. called me some stupid name and I turned my head upside down so I could see her in the seat behind me. Alexis was also sitting behind me. From my position, (upside-down) I could see both Erika and Alexis. I glanced at Alexis and for the split second I was watching her, I saw that she was glaring at me. I swear, her eyes were narrowed and her lips were puckered up. I think she’s capable of doing anything when she’s that mad!

I wonder what I’d say if Mike would ask me out. Of course I’d say yes but how? I don’t want to act totally deperate by jumping for it. Then again, I don’t want to act like it’s no big deal because it is! Continue Reading

I’ve never been hugged by a guy.

Originally Written on November 25, 1993
Posted on by Jennifer Heller

HAPPY Thanksgiving!

I wonder what it would be like to have a boyfriend. I mean, would he walk with you to your classes? Would he give you a hug when you leave each other? God, I hope so. I’ve never been hugged by a guy. That’s because I have no real guy friends. I have some but not good friends.

Dad gave me the stereo system that was in the Computer Room. I asked for it last night, but I wasn’t serious. Now I have it! It’s so much nicer than the old little one I had before.

Tomorrow’s Natalie’s party. I hope Alexis isn’t a bitch. She will be anyway, since it’s her natural behaviour. She come from a long line of bitches. I bet her mom’s a bitch, her gradma’s a bitch and so on. I’ll bet.

I was thinking that one time when me and Alexis are going to have a really big fight, I’ll have to me going out w/ Mike for more than two weeks. That way I can say, “At least I can keep my boyfriends for more than two weeks!” I swear she’s afraid of an realationship. I read in YM that if a girl is quick to insult her ex, she wants him back. And at the drop of a pin she’ll insult Jeff and Roger. She’s such a loser. Continue Reading

sometimes my cat serves the same purpose as an inkblot

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Look at what a cutie he is!

Lately, he’s been looking to me like a crawfish:

You can see the resemblance right?

I suppose that means I want to eat him. I mean, he is pretty cute.

The boyfriend mentioned last night that to him Gus looks a lot like Louis CK.

Now, there is no way that Gus looks more like a man than a crayfish.  Sure he’s got the right coloring, but where are the whiskers?? They are both fairly crotchety old men, though.  I have to concede a resemblance there.
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Nothing they could do to me is going to be as bad as what we’re going to do to them.

Originally Written on November 24, 1993
Posted on by Jennifer Heller

I named my new GAP Baby bear after Mike. I named him dubleve sanc cinq for W5. It’s in french. W5 is for Who, What, Where When, and Why. Get it? I named my dog that I got him from Great America Martin for Robbie M . Not that he’s a dog or anything. I can always change that one, though. Yestaerday Robbie asked me if I was going out w/ Mike S. I said no, of course. How could he insult me that way. I’d never go out with him. He can be sweet and I consider him a friend. Then, Robbie asked me if I’d gone out w/ Andy. Again I had to say I didn’t.

Emily says Mike was watching me in French. She said she turned around to ask him for a piece of paper and he was watching me. Maybe I have a chance with him.

Yesterday in PE oh god I get embaressed just thinking about it. Continue Reading

Misisipi Rider’s Ghost of Johnny Cash

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Before we moved in together, my amazing boyfriend would make me mixtapes every so often. He has the amazing ability to pick songs that I don’t know yet and grow to love.

I listened to one of his tapes over the weekend and remembered this amazing song by Misisipi Rider. I was disgruntled to discover via Youtube that they toured San Francisco earlier this year!

Note to self: Never miss another show by Misisipi Rider. At least I can be there vicariously via youtube.

Here they are, performing at Cafe Du Nord. I’m so thankful for the sheer talent of my fellow humans. 😀

In love with that song as much as I am? The studio version is even better. Download the mp3 and support independent musicians! (Seriously, of that 99 cents, how much do you think Misisipi Rider gets??)

Last Fri Natalie said Alexis said, that she “didn’t want to be really good friends just okay friends.”

Originally Written on November 22, 1993
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Last Fri Natalie said Alexis said, that she “didn’t want to be really good friends just okay friends.”

In block I changed seats because we were put in rows. I get to sit near Alexis! Lucky me! Not! God, when she realized she was sitting by me, I heard her say something along the lines of, “Oh no!” I hate her so much!

She, Natalie and Ana went to the mall and a movie last Sat. and they bought best friend rings! Am I supposed to be jealous? Yeah sure, I’ll be jealous when the fat lady sings. (Ana, you’re cue!) At lunch I was forced to eat lunch w/ them and they were totally leaving me out of the conversation.

Ana, Natalie and Alexis were talking about how the guy Natalie likes was in sight. I’m not sure it was made up. It might have been, but then again.

Well, you know what if Alexis is trying to make me crawl back to being her friend, it’s not going to happen! Two can play at this game…

Just when you thought I couldn’t get any meaner…

Plan GA (getting Alexis)

1. Emily and I read each others diaries in band, Alexis hates that!

2. totally ignore Alexis in band and block.

3. Leave a note the Becky supposedly wrote on the chair in band, so Alexis reads it. The note says, “send me Alexis and Ana’s pictures so I can throw darts at it.” Later I’ll ask Alexis for her picture…

We’re going to wing this “game!”

The only thing I’m afraid of is that Alexis and Ana really are good friends. That means Alexis has probably been a spy for Ana all this time. No wonder Ana found out about the notes.

On to my romance life.

MOOD SWING!

In French, I got a hundred (thank you) on the test. Mike H. did too. (Oh, by the way, when Mrs. C called out my score Alexis gave me a look of pure jealousy). After class Mike was teasing me about how I have Veronique for a French name. He called it Veronica. I suppose I like him. I also like the one and only sixth grader in Pre Algebra. His name is Kevin. He’s so cute! I’m not serius about him, though. Last but definitely not least is Robbie Martin. He might be going out w/ Kelly (the bitch) H but I’m not sure.

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Back to Alexis. She started a rumer, while we were fighting that I like Jeff M. and he liked me! She’s such a bitch! She also gave Jared V my number. And my parents number. What a bitch!!!

I love Mannequins

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I have a bit of a collection.

Apropos of nothing, I spotted a couple of pairs of men’s mannequin legs in some strange places recently.

Perched outside of my old stomping grounds, Cloyne Court Hotel & Casino:

And adorning some majorly cool person’s desk at the offices of the East Bay Express:

I’m thinking it might be time to add some men’s legs — complete with junk — to my collection as well. Continue Reading

Standing by the counter was the finest, cutest guy I have ever seen. His hair was dark brown and cut in an excellent mushroom cut

Originally Written on November 18, 1993
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Alexis says she doesn’t want to be very good friends with me, anymore. It’s seems that Cassie does, though. She invited me over today, but I couldn’t go because I had the Dreams to Reality Night. I’m going over on Monday. Today after I ate I went around the school w/ Cassie and Kristen B.

Kristen did my hair in a french braid and we were over by the counselor’s office. Suddenly screams broke into our conversation. We went over to the window and inside was what the commotion was about. Standing by the counter was the finest, cutest guy I have ever seen. His hair was dark brown and cut in an excellent mushroom cut. It didn’t look stupid like on other guys, but made him look cute. He had a light tan, and a gold ball in one ear. It made him look sexy not gay. The chain around his neck was the perfect length. He was a wearing a low-neck red T-shirt, with a red and black plaid, flannel shirt over it (the style) and baggy jeans. He is so fine! Continue Reading