Why is it I am so self-conscientious around Gate. Any Gate event kills me. Daily I have Gate Science. The class itself is ok, but the people in it make me feel so strange. Partly is my past. I’m always thinking that everyone there has already judged me, and I have no more chances. Sandy’s not in the class thank God. I think Andy was staring at me. I think I just felt someone’s gaze throughout the day. Maybe it was Chan again. He was in a lot of my classes. I don’t know why I’ve been crying.