I nicknamed her Gorgeous, cause she was gorgeous to me.

So empty, so carefree. I can take it, she said. And she took it.

All my photos. My music. My important business files.

Ooooh, my important business files.

I came back from lunch the other day to find her unplugged. I had left her plugged in, I distinctly remembered. But she’d been unplugged so many times before, I didn’t worry. I plugged her back in.

Nothing.

I plugged her into the three closest computers. Nothing.

I was sure she was just sick. I gave her some Reiki.* Seriously. I thought positive thoughts.

I brought her home. At home I have a shortcut to her on my desktop. If I could try accessing her via the shortcut, that will work. She was humming…and spinning… Her little blue light was turning on in that oh so familiar way.

At home, nothing. The next day I brought her to my IT guy, and he said that it didn’t look good. That wasn’t humming and spinning. That was clanking and crashing.

With desperate passion I regretted that moment when right clicked on my trash can and chose “Empty.” What was I thinking?! Where was my other back up? Why hadn’t I listened to z.Dank?!! And why hadn’t I gotten the bartender’s number instead of leaving that silly, though eloquent, note for him, because at least then I would know right now if he had a girlfriend? Or I could have included something about “Don’t worry, you don’t have to be my boyfriend” cause we all know that the b word scares everybody?! And most importantly, why didn’t I buy two external hard drives and put all my shit on both cause at least then I’d have it right now and I’d be able to work and…

:””(

Those are real tears I’m crying right there.

I’m trying to be optimistic.

I still have these photos of this car Alex and I almost bought once.

And here’s the bird the Guster killed the other day.

Without even leaving the house! My god. What a cat. And here’s this cute picture I took of me and Grandma.

She was totally impressed with how we could see the photos right away. Ooh! And the other night I made my mac and cheese and chard into a yin and yang!

Isn’t that cute?!

I tell you. Given the selection of photos for the last few weeks, we’re really missing out on those six years of photos I am going to have to pay however much to be recovered if the Magical & Great Surgeon that Gorgeous went to the city to see tonight isn’t able to…

….

…don’t think like that…

….

If nothing else, I’ll just file this into my $300+ mistakes file.

What a day.

:””'(

*ancient Japanese form of hands-on healing. The Wikipedia entry lacks citations, FYI.