January 2, 2012
A perfect day – but not a perfect ending. I feel like I’m about to cry. For no particular reason. I was listening to Kenny G. and a wave of saddness came over me. I have no idea why. Suddenly I really wanted to go back to school and see all those people I adore. I miss them all. But on Mon. I won’t see the most familiary friendly face of all. Becky will be in Tecas completing another day of hell – I won’t be seeing her anytime soon. I miss her sooo much. For some reason tonight brought back some feelings. Not very good ones. I don’t know what they’re from, but if anything happened right now – I would break out crying. It might happen anyway.
Today I went to Tower Records and got “music Box” – Mariah Carey, “janet” Janet Jackson, the soundtrack for The Bodyguard – Whitney Houston & “Breathless” – Kenny G. I spent $30! Now I’m borke and I didn’t get half the stuff I wanted! Do you remember buying cassette tapes at the mall as a pre-teen??
January 2, 2012
I really should know better but I lost my chance to ask out this girl I met at a Jonathan Richman show.
She’s got cute glasses and wears hats.
Her name’s Maya.
Hopefully by some miracle she’ll see this.
I was too tongue-tied to say anything intelligent at the time, so I’d like to try again. My name’s Noah. Youre.the.girl.from.the.show@gmail.com
January 2, 2012
I’ve been doing some work on the site here. A couple months ago I had put together this crazy horizontally scrolling design that y’all didn’t like (and I didn’t, either, when it came down to it).
So…what do you think? Cool black and white design, maybe? Informative sidebars, maybe? I’ve even got it looking pretty good in IE*! Do you love it??! I hope you love it!
December 30, 2011
Grandma is coming in the morning. With her comes trouble. Mom and Grandma don’t exactly get along–it has something to do with her childhood. Grandma will be bringing gifts from Aunt Linda and hers. The tree is filled with presents–but only one for me! It’s from Ellen! Sara hasn’t “gotten” my present yet–I think she’s “getting”‘ me $.
I hate vacation–sure I get to sleep in and do whatever I feel like, but I don’t see my friends or dubleve cinq! Last time I saw d.c., he said I looked like an old lady–my roots white. Nikki defended me–we’re becoming good friends! (boring entry?)
Don’t you love that 12-year-old me was asking y’all what you thought? So what do you think? Boring?
December 30, 2011
Someone who likes getting up early. (And also one that wasn’t such an OCD crazy person when it comes to living with people. That one sucks. But it must be noted, also keeps a very tidy and wonderful house 
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This morning I intended to get up at the same time as my boyfriend (6 a.m.!). I’ve always wished that I enjoyed the mornings…but I don’t. I’ve toyed with the idea that in 2012 I will get up at 6 a.m. every day.
Get up, do some yoga, read a book and head to work by 8am. If I were to get up at 6 every morning, then t hose 7 a.m. meetings I might have won’t be such a horrible shock to the system.
But 6 a.m.! It’s still dark! You can’t even tell what the weather is going to be like. Today I looked out at 6 a.m. when I was up making my boyfriend a heart-shaped egg in a pan I got him for Christmas, and I wondered, will it rain? Will it be sunny? Will it be cold or temperate? I don’t even know!!
How is a person supposed to get dressed with such a scarcity of information?! How is one supposed to enjoy the mornings when there’s no sunshine and that bed is so damn warm and a cat so fluffy to cuddle??
Really, I need to know. I want to enjoy mornings in 2012! Any advice for someone trying desperately to become a morning person? What do you wish you could change about yourself?
December 30, 2011
Tonight was the band concert. It wasn’t quite the same w/o Becky. Last concert, after we played, Becky and I sat together and someone was tapping us on the shoulders the entire time. It was so fun. Tonight I looked around the gym and everything was the same. Mom and Dad sat in their same places, as always. The only difference was the school banner said 93/94 instead of 92/93. And Becky wasn’t there. The Jazz Bank played “Rudolph the Red Nosed Reindeer again. My dad told me to meet him in the same spot as we have been in the past.
Everything was so alike yet so different. Becki R. didn’t have a broken arm… Amy V., Andrew C., Scott G. and alot more were in the Symphonic Band, we were in concert… Becky’s mom wasn’t video taping us… I wasn’t having a good time talking to Becky — instead Emily was telling me to shut up…
Becky wasn’t there!
I wish she was… I would have gone home w/ her or the other way around, we would have had a good laugh at my breaking my sunglasses, the night and the whole year would have been different. I’ll never find another Becky. Were you a band geek? Do you remember your middle school band concerts?
December 30, 2011
I’m so hurt. Emily still hasn’t called. I didn’t go to school today. I don’t know if she did either. I didn’t bother to call to find out though. Whenever I do call she acts like she doesn’t want to talk to me, so why bother? Why hasn’t she called to find out what happened at the dance? If I were in her shoes, I would have called the first chance I got. Even if I was sick. Even if I was busy. Becky called and she hasn’t! Is she mad? I geuss I’ll find out tomorrow at school.
What do you think? Is she mad?
December 30, 2011
Last night I headed over to my girlfriend’s house for some empathy.
You see, my boyfriend and I were having disagreements about the correct path for our relationship to take. This had gone on for a number of days (or months depending on how you count it) and my patience was up and the tears were a-flowing.
When we’d moved on to lighter subjects, she shared that earlier that day, while sitting around a table of four girlfriends, each in turn shared their holiday breakdown. How perfect that mine would round out the day!
The holidays are a time of stress and joy, hangovers and presents, holiday parties and heartache. They are chock so full of ups and downs that it feels like the few weeks last a year themselves.
This year I was so determined to do it right and stress-free that I started the presents spreadsheet before Thanksgiving and had most presents wrapped a week before Christmas. Even that level of preparation did not keep a breakdown at bay.
From now on, I will rest assured that each holiday season, there will be a breakdown. No matter how I mentally and physically prepare, it is a taxing season that lends itself to breakdowns.
And there’s nothing wrong with that. Let’s accept reality as is, shall we? What was your holiday breakdown?
December 27, 2011
It’s supposed to be a happy time. We got our tree today. The day was going great til we got the tree home.
Mom and Dad were putting the tree in the holder and I couldn’t wait to start decorating it. Then Dad got a phone call and Mom went up to do the laundry. Me and Sara were putting the train together, in order to wait for Mom & Dad to come to join us so we could put up the ornaments. I was upset because the track wasn’t cooperating and Sara was being annoying. Also Mom & Dad were supposed to be helping. Dad got off the phone but still didn’t help. Xmas is a happy, family togetherness time I geuss he was working or something. Mom came but didn’t help, just stood around watching. I tried to hold back the tears and have fun. Finally Mom and Dad started fixing dinner, so I ditched Sara and came up to my room to cry, which I’m doing now.
For years the whole family has helped decorating the tree. Now dad has decided to break the tradition. Did your parents ever betray you this way??
