Emily came over today and I guess I feel a little better after talking to her. I guess I am having a hard time accepting the fact that a major part of my life is over. It’s amazing what 15 seconds can do. I’m sure it’s a change that probably is long overdue but,… I don’t know.
I just have to wonder how long it will be before I have another. Even though I wanted my first kiss to be because we wanted to, I’m glad it happened. Now I don’t have to sit and wonder what it will be like. Emily said that guys are like ice-cream. Continue Reading
Everyone who was at the party was walking around with their hands on their necks trying to get rid of the pain in their necks. It like, branded us!
Anyway, there’s talk of another one next weekend. I don’t think I’ll head-bang quite as much! It’s supposed to be at Cassie’s house and they’re considering playing spin-the-bottle! This weekend will be quite eventful if it happens!
This day where nothing much happened was coincidentally my mom’s birthday.
No school today! I just laid around watching the telly in pain while working on my history project. In pain?, you say? Yes, well too much head-banging has a type of hangover. My neck hurts like hell! So do the bottom parts of my legs!
ADVICE: Don’t over do it on the head-banging! And the DANCING!
But it was worth it! I had a great time last night! Even though now I’m sitting around in bed with a heating pad on my neck! The sounds of I swear by All-4-One being distorted by my walkman in my ears.
I <3 that song! It’s my new song! Right now all I have is a radio-recording but “I swear”–get it– that I’ll get a good copy! But I wish last night’ hadn’t ended! I just loved it! I mean, it was alot better than the dances! I don’t know why but I came w/ no expectations so I had a great time! I don’t know why it’s just… Maybe I just had a better time ’cause there weren’t as many people so I wasn’t so self-conscious! Toodles! Chow! Continue Reading
Tonight was Lex’s surprise going away boy-girl party. It was great! Sure, I feel sick from all the spinning and have a headache from the head-banging! It was at Natalie’s and I was high the entire time. High on what is the question! Probably sugar! Between my highs I felt stoned. But I danced three times! Twice w/ Tom and another w/ Dave S. They’re both really sweet.
For my first boy-girl party it was cool!
Sure I got really depressed during some of the slow songs but other than that all of the head banging was totally rad! Now, I love to head-bang! The guest list included:
Loni C. Dave S.
me Tom W.
Ana Mike P.
Natalie Billy B.
Erika Gary L.
Last week was spent at Las Vegas (spring vacation)
So far this week has been hectic. Nothing much has happened, though.
Today, the major stuff was in Block. Somehow, the subject of my kissing Robbie was brought up again! Jeeeeeeeeeeez! Ana sits next to Tom. So I went over to visit Ana and Tom started talking to us. The subject had already been brought up. Tom said that ever since the kiss between us Robbie has never been the same. Tom says he dreams about me and that Robbie told him he woke up this morning thinking something like “It’s after me!” The thing that made it signifigant was later I heard Robbie yelling at Tom about how Tom always tells his secrets and he keeps Tom’s. Could this have been a secret?
Also, Steve W. said Gary L. likes me awhile back so lately I’ve been total nervous in the room as Gary. We’re throwing a surprise going away party for Alexis and Gary’s coming. There’s only going to be 20 peopl (10 of each gender) so what if Gary makes a move? I don’t like him, I don’t like anyone! Then again Gary might not like me at all–I may be making much ado about nothing. Continue Reading
I’m depressed. I want to go out with someone so bad I can taste it! I swear. The problem is, is there’s this empty place inside me because I don’t even have anyone to like. When I liked Robbie, I could concentrate my efforts on him so I didn’t notice the emptiness. Lately, I’ve tried to fill the space with my love for ice-skating. It doesn’t work that way though. I wish it did. I wish I didn’t have to like someone to feel complete.
I wish the two sexes weren’t attracted to each other.
I’ve felt this way since last Monday when Jordan asked Natalie out. She said yes and although I’m happy for her I’m very jealous. I want to go out w/ someone I want to be the one w/ the boyfriend! Lately I’ve been the butt of a lot of jokes about the fact that I don’t have anyone to like and haven’t gone out with anyone. And usually I make them. It’s just away for me to laugh at my pain. I just wish I could fill the empty space inside. It would be easier if I knew had proof that a few guys like/liked me. Then I could know I could actually have a chance w/ the guy I like! Continue Reading
Hi! I just finished watching the Figure Skating World Nationals, in Japan. I love to watch figure-skating. I swear.
Last Thursday, the actual performance was of kids not older than me who were trying out their programs for the U.S Nationals in front of an audience. It made me realize that in a few years I can be the one performing my program, not welcoming on the performers! And I will go to the Nationals. Mom thinks I’ll go too.
I can just imagine telling someone, “And then I’m off to the Nationals in _______” Then I‘ll really be able to rub Jessica’s face in the ice for calling me a “Tonya Harding want a be!” I swear, I’d like to see her do a solchow! Anyway it doesn’t matter if I don’t make it to the Olympics. But I want to make it up to the Nationals! Continue Reading