August 17, 1994

I’M GOING TO BE ORGANIZED THIS YEAR! There it’s in writing. I’ve promised myself, I’m going to stay organized all year.

by Jen the Megalomaniac on October 2, 2012

The pool party didn’t happen, so I haven’t seen Dave. This Saturday, Sara and I are leaving to go to Colorado to visit Grandma. We’ll come back next Sat. I’m looking forward to the plane ride, but a week with Sara and Grandma! I’ll have fun, I know. I just have to be extra careful not to let Sara get on my nerves.

In exactly three weeks, I will have completed a day of hell. Back to school! I have some of my school supplies, but I wish it wouldn’t be starting so soon. I enjoy school, but I don’t like not knowing if I’ll know people in any of my classes. Also there’s the busing. I said I didn’t want to carpool with Jessica and Christy and Believe me, that’s true! But, I will only know Katie on the bus. I was thinking I could carpool with Emily, but I don’t think that’s going to work out.

I know that when riding the bus, I’ll meet lots of new people, and make friends, but I would perfer a carpool with Emily. Well, I don’t know. I really want my freedom this year, and comiting myself to another carpool might not be the best idea. I like being able to make split second decisions to go over to someone’s house, and a carpool would greatly interfere with that.


There it’s in writing. I’ve promised myself, I’m going to stay organized all year. Every year, I’ve started out organized, but then I got unorganized and could never find anything! Not this year.

Maybe I’ll carpool with Emily for the first week or so of school and then try out the bus. It might not be so bad.

I pray I know someone in my P.E. class. I’m not worried about any other classes. I really hope that I know someone. I need to share a big locker with someone! It would be hella cool if the entire cool group had P.E. together! I hope we all eat together.

I don’t know what to do about Dave. Emily has this magic eight ball and it says that he’s considering me more than a friend but he doesn’t like me. But he likes Emily. I don’t trust the fortune-telling sphere, but I am worried. He may not like Emily, but I’m pretty sure he likes Nat.

Here’s why:

-He tells two people in the entire world who he likes and they’re Nat. and his best friend who lives in some other town. What does he tell me? It says that either Natalie has somehow majorly earned his trust or that he tells her to get close to her.

-He’s always insulting her. Usually that’s a cover for true feelings.

I don’t have another reason except that he flirts with everyone!

I don’t know if Dave likes Em, but believe me, I’m going to watch for clues. With Natalie, too.

I really don’t want to risk rejection again. I’m going to lay off liking him. Or try to! Hey, I asked Robbie out, I know what rejection is like! Just about every guy I’ve liked has somehow rejected me. I’m not going to let it get out that I like him. Somehow Keri F. knows. I’m still trying to figure it out. Oh well. O hate my life. Nothing is happening. In the guy part at least. I’ve given up hope with me + Dave. It’s not going to work out. I’m sure that at ice skating when Em said he was checking me out it was just her imagination.

Hopelessly Yours,

Jennifer Heller

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