I want to go out w/ someone so I can hug someone. Kiss someone… You know what’s really sad? I’ve kissed a guy and I’ve never hugged anyone.

Tonight is probably going to be a very memorable evening. Cassie held a party. The guest list included:

Girls               Guys
me                 Mike P.
Lex                Kris B.
Cassie             Robbie
Ana                Tom
Erika              Jordan
Emily              Billy
Windy             Dave S.
Daniele W.
Loni C.
Natalie
Abby R.

Well, the party had a bottle. For spin-the-bottle which led to Truth or Dare. In Spin-the-Bottle I picked:

Dave 3? times
Kris 1 time
Robbie! 1 time

After that in Truth-or-Dare I lip-locked twice. One time for 5 seconds and another for 10 seconds.

The first one was with Kris? I’m not sure! But, I do know the second was Robbie!!! Can you believe it? That makes a total of 3 times I kissed him!–But I’m not happy about any of them. They were meaningless. That’s what really sucks.

I wanted my first kiss to be w/ my boyfriend and having wanted to do them! I didn’t want them on a dare. Unfortunately I didn’t realize this until afterwards. So I wasted my first kiss. But it was dumb! The kiss. It felt… DUMB! So after those kisses I kinds wanted to french somebody. To see what that was like. To see if it was any better. Or I wanted to see if anybody was a better kisser. So after the game ended, I became depressed because I didn’t french anybody.

But the two lip-locks gave me a sort of… craving for more. I don’t know. I wish the game hadn’t ended. But I spent the rest of the night in depression which led to misery. I want to go out w/ someone so I can hug someone. Kiss someone… You know what’s really sad? I’ve kissed a guy and I’ve never hugged anyone.

Well I’m really depressed. I’m not even going to mention the dancing, for I danced only one more time than I lip-locked. Right know I look w/ extreme jealousy at the couples out there who kissed because they wanted to not because of a dare. I want to go out with someone.

When was your first kiss? Was it wasted??

9 thoughts on “I want to go out w/ someone so I can hug someone. Kiss someone… You know what’s really sad? I’ve kissed a guy and I’ve never hugged anyone.

  1. Cassie had a party and I was there, and Mike Patterson was there, and Ana Faron was there, and Erika Fritts was there, and Emily Hardy was there, and Natalie Darst was there, and Windy McNerney was there, and so many more..

  2. Oh, do I remember those parties. I always felt like a freak cause I didn’t wanna play spin the bottle or truth or dare for exactly the reason you described – I didn’t want to “waste” my first kiss. Though I can’t remember how I got out of participating.

  3. Nope. Every couple of years, I would decide writing a diary was a good idea. I’d last maybe a week or two and then forget to ever write in it again. If I even kept them, they were probably among the belongings that were stolen years ago.

  4. I must have left early, or blocked this out of my memory because I don’t remember the bottle either. Although I think I remember Truth or Dare that night.

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